I Know

I know I really want to weep

At your passing away

For not being there                             

To applaud my achievements

And caress me when I am hurt

I know I really want to weep

When everything reminds me of you

The moments we shared together

And our joys and disappointments    

With one another

I know I really want to weep

But when my heart aches with pain

And tears well up in my eyes

I feel your presence

In my thoughts and memories

I know I really want to weep

But then I know it will cause you pain

As it always did when I was anguished

And the tears that are flowing

Stop as suddenly as they had begun

I know I really want to weep

But I would rather have your comfort

Than have you in pain

So that I can find comfort in your arms

For just that little longer

I know I really want to weep

But the tears I will shed

Are the ones that will well up

In the eyes of others

As something I do

Reminds someone of you.

Your World and Mine

What is yours for the world

Has become mine in spirit

For though you seem surrounded by it

You are often swept away

In the cacophony of its presence

For me it is a world of serenity

Of peace and joy that can be lived and relived

Through the memories that I cherish

And can bring to mind whenever I please

I know you adore your world

But I love mine too

For yours is built in time and space

While mine lies deep within the mind and soul

And while the one passes by

Luring you and leaving you weeping  

At its passing away

The other is eternal

Offering companionship                  

 That neither time nor change

Can ever destroy

And so I live

And so I live with pain as my constant companion

And so I live with tears that I shed deep within unseen by anyone

And so I live with every joy and sorrow that makes me miss you

And so I live with every moment reminding me of you

And so I live with memories that grow sharper with time

And so I live with the ones in whom I try to seek you

And so I live trying to be true to all that you tried to make of me

And so I live looking forward to the day I will be with you again

Aware that when i do I need to make you proud

You Said It

My heart feels as though it would crumble,

There is a dull ache in my head,

Each word seems a stain on silence,

And my whole being feels heavy as lead;

I told him in pain and anguish

Yet, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

The world as I knew it is passing,

The change is too much to bear,

Values no longer matter,

And no one seems to care;

Do you feel the same, I questioned

But, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

My joy seems to last for a moment,

I often lie thinking in bed,

The songs I loved; I hum no longer,

My tears lie buried, unshed;

I am sure you understand, I ventured

And, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

‘Are you dead?’ I asked him in anger,

You seem unmoved, by all I have said,

You are an observer, unconcerned,

Just watching the world go by instead;

Without a blink he turned to me and whispered

‘How can I? I am the thought in your head!’

FORFEITURE

A part of me lost again.

With my lost phone,

The contacts gone;

The photographs clicked

To capture moments,

And serve later

To clarify memories,

When time casts

Its haze on them,

Now lost forever.

The light banter

That I exchanged, at times,

With my loved ones,

Which brought a smile,

Even if I’d open them accidentally,

Now wiped out,

Without a trace..

And, like this,

I have lost myself -

Bit by bit,

Sometimes

Through unasked questions;

At others,

Through actions

That remain unexplained;

People lost through death,

Or those who wander away,

Without offering a reason;

Thoughts that are lost,

In the disturbed sleep

That follows dreams;

Or those

I am too busy to pursue.

Lost jobs; lost things; lost opportunities…

The list seems endless.

Leaving me pondering

On my carelessness, on life

About who I am,

And what is it

That I have gained

After all that I have lost in life.

एक विनंती

एक सहवास सोडून तू बघता बघता नाहीशी झालीस
एक दरवळणारा सुवास सोडून तू एकांतात विलीन झालीस
तरी मन मानत नाही कि तू इथे नाहीस
आयुष्याच्या प्रत्येक क्षणात तुझे आभास उमटत रहित
आज पाठीवर हात नसला तरी तुझा भास आहे
तुझ्या अजामर शिकवणीचा, न सुटणारा साथ आहे
तरी एकदा कधी तरी मधूनच एक हाक दे
आनंद आणि दुखांच्या क्षणी, पाठीवर एक थाप दे
तुझ्या गोड आठवणीनी आयुष्याला वाट दे
जाईन इथून तेव्हा पुन्हा तुझा सांभाळणारा हात दे 

हि एक कविता फक्त माझ्यासाठी

कधी कधी वाटतं कि

अखंड आयुषच निघून गेलं आहे तुझ्यापायी

आणि तरीही तू कोण आहेस

हे देखील मला कळत नाही

बदलती रूपं घेऊन तू

मला नडत असतोस

आयुष्याच्या प्रत्येक क्षणात

तूच तू दडत असतोस

माझे आचार माझे विचार

माझे कधीच वाटत नाहीत

प्रत्येक क्षणावर आयुष्याच्या

विविध आभास उमटत रहित

तरी सुद्धा सारे म्हणतात

हि ती अशीच आहे

त्यांची ठाम मत पाहून

मन ते उमजू पाहे

त्यांना हे कसं  वाटतं

मला कधीच समजत नाही

माझ्यातला मी पणा

मला अजिबात उमजत नाही

राग, लोभ, प्रेम, इच्छा

सगळ्यात तुझा हात दिसतो

ऑफिसच  असो वा घरचं काही

सगळ्यावर तुझा ठसा असतो

सुखं दुखं दोन्हीचे क्षण

मला तुझ्या दारी नेतात

आठवणींचे श्वास मनात

नकळत फुलात जातात

तुला मात्र हे सत्य

अजिबात रुजत नाही

शब्दात मांडून पहिले जरी

तुला ते समजत नाही

म्हणून आज मी केवळ

माझ्यासाठी जगणार आहे

कवितेत रंग सारे

माझ्यासाठी भरणार आहे

हि एक कविता मी

माझ्यासाठी लिहिणार आहे

माझेपण सापडे पर्यंत

मी ते शोधणार आहे

कविता असली माझी जरी

तुला पाहिजे तर दाद दे

समजण्याचा प्रयत्न सोडून

न समजता साथ दे