Showing posts with label Poem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poem. Show all posts

Sunday, February 15, 2015

I have with time come to believe
That a sudden downpour would be better,
Even if it were to cause a temporary flood.
For, after all, the water would ebb,
Sooner rather than later.
And would yet leave what remains
Green and devoid of stains.
But, like a condemned cloud,
That sheds a few drops,
Before the wind carries it away
Leaving it heavy and the earth craving for more,
My tears fall but do not flow.
And, like the cloud, eternally carrying its burden
Till another opportunity comes its way
To shed a few drops,
I too carry the pain of my loss
That can never really ever go away.

Does It Mean

Does it mean you love me more
If you carry on being yourself
Aware of my presence
But not bothered by it;
Or the acknowledging my being there
By giving me the reaction,
You know I seek.


Does it mean you love me more
If you demand from me what you want;
Or then rather choose to do
What you think I would like.


Does it mean you love me more
If you continue being yourself
Knowing that I would understand;
Or the change those parts of your being
That you know, I don’t approve of.


Does it mean you love me more
If you involve me in all you do;
Or then leave me to my own devices
Believing that I would call you
If I needed you.


Or then does it mean
That love just exists
And it is you or I
That give it meaning
Or then, unwittingly,

Snatch it away.

The Sea

Every wave reminds me of you and her
Your quiet longing for the sea
And the sounds of the water
As you sat gazing at it quietly
For hours.
You said it brought you peace –
The rhythm and the regularity
Of the waves and stretches of sand

For her the opposite
As she squeals in delight
With every wave that comes rushing
Unable to gauge its depth and power
Every shout different and louder than the one before
Then rushing to the shore to build castles
Scattering colourful toys
That break the monotony of the sand.

Others may see in you opposites
But all I find is the sameness
Of your undying love for the sea
Binding my past to my future
In a continuum that makes all seashores
But a reflection of the others
And unfailingly draws me to them
To relive the memories
As I breathe in the air
And look longingly at the sea and sands
That carry on being themselves
Unaware of my presence
And what they mean to me.


I Know

I know I really want to weep
At your passing away
For not being there                             
To applaud my achievements
And caress me when I am hurt

I know I really want to weep
When everything reminds me of you
The moments we shared together
And our joys and disappointments    
With one another

I know I really want to weep
But when my heart aches with pain
And tears well up in my eyes
I feel your presence
In my thoughts and memories

I know I really want to weep
But then I know it will cause you pain
As it always did when I was anguished
And the tears that are flowing
Stop as suddenly as they had begun

I know I really want to weep
But I would rather have your comfort
Than have you in pain
So that I can find comfort in your arms
For just that little longer

I know I really want to weep
But the tears I will shed
Are the ones that will well up
In the eyes of others
As something I do

Reminds someone of you.

Your World and Mine

What is yours for the world
Has become mine in spirit
For though you seem surrounded by it
You are often swept away
In the cacophony of its presence
For me it is a world of serenity
Of peace and joy that can be lived and relived
Through the memories that I cherish
And can bring to mind whenever I please

I know you adore your world
But I love mine too
For yours is built in time and space
While mine lies deep within the mind and soul
And while the one passes by
Luring you and leaving you weeping  
At its passing away
The other is eternal
Offering companionship                  
 That neither time nor change

Can ever destroy

And so I live

And so I live with pain as my constant companion
And so I live with tears that I shed deep within unseen by anyone
And so I live with every joy and sorrow that makes me miss you
And so I live with every moment reminding me of you
And so I live with memories that grow sharper with time
And so I live with the ones in whom I try to seek you
And so I live trying to be true to all that you tried to make of me
And so I live looking forward to the day I will be with you again

Aware that when i do I need to make you proud

You Said It

My heart feels as though it would crumble,
There is a dull ache in my head,
Each word seems a stain on silence,
And my whole being feels heavy as lead;
I told him in pain and anguish
Yet, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

The world as I knew it is passing,
The change is too much to bear,
Values no longer matter,
And no one seems to care;
Do you feel the same, I questioned
But, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

My joy seems to last for a moment,
I often lie thinking in bed,
The songs I loved; I hum no longer,
My tears lie buried, unshed;
I am sure you understand, I ventured
And, ‘You Said It’ was all he said.

‘Are you dead?’ I asked him in anger,
You seem unmoved, by all I have said,
You are an observer, unconcerned,
Just watching the world go by instead;
Without a blink he turned to me and whispered
‘How can I? I am the thought in your head!’


Wednesday, November 20, 2013

FORFEITURE


A part of me lost again.
With my lost phone,
The contacts gone;
The photographs clicked
To capture moments,
And serve later
To clarify memories,
When time casts
Its haze on them,
Now lost forever.
The light banter
That I exchanged, at times,
With my loved ones,
Which brought a smile,
Even if I’d open them accidentally,
Now wiped out,
Without a trace..
And, like this,
I have lost myself -
Bit by bit,
Sometimes
Through unasked questions;
At others,
Through actions
That remain unexplained;
People lost through death,
Or those who wander away,
Without offering a reason;
Thoughts that are lost,
In the disturbed sleep
That follows dreams;
Or those
I am too busy to pursue.
Lost jobs; lost things; lost opportunities…
The list seems endless.
Leaving me pondering
On my carelessness, on life
About who I am,
And what is it
That I have gained
After all that I have lost in life.


Monday, October 21, 2013

एक विनंती



एक सहवास सोडून तू बघता बघता नाहीशी झालीस
एक दरवळणारा सुवास सोडून तू एकांतात विलीन झालीस
तरी मन मानत नाही कि तू इथे नाहीस
आयुष्याच्या प्रत्येक क्षणात तुझे आभास उमटत रहित
आज पाठीवर हात नसला तरी तुझा भास आहे
तुझ्या अजामर शिकवणीचा, न सुटणारा साथ आहे
तरी एकदा कधी तरी मधूनच एक हाक दे
आनंद आणि दुखांच्या क्षणी, पाठीवर एक थाप दे
तुझ्या गोड आठवणीनी आयुष्याला वाट दे
जाईन इथून तेव्हा पुन्हा तुझा सांभाळणारा हात दे 

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

हि एक कविता फक्त माझ्यासाठी

कधी कधी वाटतं कि
अखंड आयुषच निघून गेलं आहे तुझ्यापायी
आणि तरीही तू कोण आहेस
हे देखील मला कळत नाही

बदलती रूपं घेऊन तू
मला नडत असतोस
आयुष्याच्या प्रत्येक क्षणात
तूच तू दडत असतोस

माझे आचार माझे विचार
माझे कधीच वाटत नाहीत
प्रत्येक क्षणावर आयुष्याच्या
विविध आभास उमटत रहित

तरी सुद्धा सारे म्हणतात
हि ती अशीच आहे
त्यांची ठाम मत पाहून
मन ते उमजू पाहे

त्यांना हे कसं  वाटतं
मला कधीच समजत नाही
माझ्यातला मी पणा
मला अजिबात उमजत नाही

राग, लोभ, प्रेम, इच्छा
सगळ्यात तुझा हात दिसतो
ऑफिसच  असो वा घरचं काही
सगळ्यावर तुझा ठसा असतो

सुखं दुखं दोन्हीचे क्षण
मला तुझ्या दारी नेतात
आठवणींचे श्वास मनात
नकळत फुलात जातात

तुला मात्र हे सत्य
अजिबात रुजत नाही
शब्दात मांडून पहिले जरी
तुला ते समजत नाही

म्हणून आज मी केवळ
माझ्यासाठी जगणार आहे
कवितेत रंग सारे
माझ्यासाठी भरणार आहे

हि एक कविता मी
माझ्यासाठी लिहिणार आहे
माझेपण सापडे पर्यंत
मी ते शोधणार आहे

कविता असली माझी जरी
तुला पाहिजे तर दाद दे
समजण्याचा प्रयत्न सोडून

समजता साथ दे

Thursday, August 8, 2013

YOU



You are the missed beat of my life’s clock
The tear in my life’s emotional highs
The warmth in my feelings’ winters
The cool breeze in life’s turbulent summers
The meaning in songs
The peace that makes nature
A sought after companion
The value of a well scripted book
The memory that lingers beyond the passing moment

Your presence is in every breath of my life
Making it meaningful
As also the chief reason for its meaninglessness
As I try to seize the touch that has ceased
Feeling at every moment 
A loss in fulfilment



Tuesday, October 30, 2012

सहवास


तो चंद्र काही बदलेला नाही
पण त्याचा प्रकाश मात्र बदलला आहे
मायेने कुर्वळणारा त्याचा सहवास
आज एक भकास उजेड बनून उरला आहे

तो उत्साह तो आनंद 
तो सगळा आज मवळला आहे
आणि तो चंद्र केवळ
एक प्रतिमा होऊन राहिला आहे

केवळ तू नाहीस म्हणून
अर्थ सगळा संपला आहे
आणि डोळ्यातला अश्रू  देखील 
डोळ्यातच थीजला आहे

तुझ्या नसण्याचा आभास
क्षणा क्षणावर ठसला आहे
पण तरीही तुझा सहवास
पादो पदी वसला आहे

 ह्या दुविधा मनस्थितित
जिव पार अडकला आहे
तुझ्या नसण्याचा अर्थ 
आज मला उमजला आहे

Monday, October 15, 2012

A Co-passenger’s Musings on Addicts


A city that relies on opium for its survival
For some the actual drug
Criticised and condemned
While for most the forms more subtle
Maybe more prone to danger
Sleep that closes oneself to reality
And perhaps generates dreams
That define what is not
For others music or books
That give rise to the subtle feeling of empathy
Or then create worlds that serve as a point of escape
Else, talks or messages to fill the time
Defining at times a sense of duty
At others a meaningful meaninglessness
Its structure unknown till it evolves
Or that rare writing
An attempt to capture a moment
That one hopes the other would understand
Or a refuge into the world of one’s profession
That offers a much needed identity
Being polar opposites of lived experience
Compulsive chatting with friends
Trying to catch up
And make oneself heard
Or with complete strangers
To just fill the time
Or then gleefully eavesdropping
And trying to make sense
Of the lives of others
While that of the self
Flits by unattended
Others looking out dispassionately
As the mundane sights of the city pass by
Either with a blind eye
Or a thought to one’s position in the scheme of things
And those others lost in thoughts
Disconnected and aptly representative
Of a complete and disinterested letting go
And then the two most common
And yet strikingly different
Religion that pushes the care onto someone else
In a blind faith real or sought
And newspapers that give an expose´ of reality
With the unstated power to criticise or pity
Giving a false sense of control
Of a world to which one belongs
Though a world not of one’s making
And like an addict
Whose other world fades
A sudden coming back to the moment and its realities
Into which they assimilate
Pretending that the other world did not exist