Tuesday, October 30, 2012

सहवास


तो चंद्र काही बदलेला नाही
पण त्याचा प्रकाश मात्र बदलला आहे
मायेने कुर्वळणारा त्याचा सहवास
आज एक भकास उजेड बनून उरला आहे

तो उत्साह तो आनंद 
तो सगळा आज मवळला आहे
आणि तो चंद्र केवळ
एक प्रतिमा होऊन राहिला आहे

केवळ तू नाहीस म्हणून
अर्थ सगळा संपला आहे
आणि डोळ्यातला अश्रू  देखील 
डोळ्यातच थीजला आहे

तुझ्या नसण्याचा आभास
क्षणा क्षणावर ठसला आहे
पण तरीही तुझा सहवास
पादो पदी वसला आहे

 ह्या दुविधा मनस्थितित
जिव पार अडकला आहे
तुझ्या नसण्याचा अर्थ 
आज मला उमजला आहे

Monday, October 15, 2012

A Co-passenger’s Musings on Addicts


A city that relies on opium for its survival
For some the actual drug
Criticised and condemned
While for most the forms more subtle
Maybe more prone to danger
Sleep that closes oneself to reality
And perhaps generates dreams
That define what is not
For others music or books
That give rise to the subtle feeling of empathy
Or then create worlds that serve as a point of escape
Else, talks or messages to fill the time
Defining at times a sense of duty
At others a meaningful meaninglessness
Its structure unknown till it evolves
Or that rare writing
An attempt to capture a moment
That one hopes the other would understand
Or a refuge into the world of one’s profession
That offers a much needed identity
Being polar opposites of lived experience
Compulsive chatting with friends
Trying to catch up
And make oneself heard
Or with complete strangers
To just fill the time
Or then gleefully eavesdropping
And trying to make sense
Of the lives of others
While that of the self
Flits by unattended
Others looking out dispassionately
As the mundane sights of the city pass by
Either with a blind eye
Or a thought to one’s position in the scheme of things
And those others lost in thoughts
Disconnected and aptly representative
Of a complete and disinterested letting go
And then the two most common
And yet strikingly different
Religion that pushes the care onto someone else
In a blind faith real or sought
And newspapers that give an expose´ of reality
With the unstated power to criticise or pity
Giving a false sense of control
Of a world to which one belongs
Though a world not of one’s making
And like an addict
Whose other world fades
A sudden coming back to the moment and its realities
Into which they assimilate
Pretending that the other world did not exist

Monday, August 27, 2012


Somewhere deep down the pain that I feel
Somewhere unresolved numerous questions reel
The joy of the morning fades through the day
And the darkness of night within me I lay
The body and mind with heaviness fill
Emptying the being; making it still
That’s when memories save the day
They rescue you however they may
For you are their owner and false or true
None can question them for you
So create your memories and save them well
They are the only way out of a personal hell.

Smiles that conceal pain and tears,
That oft I use to mask my fears,
What tales they hide I cannot say,
And perhaps it’s best that way.

For the mind fills up with doubts,
And questions that convictions flout;
The heart too can’t contain the pain
And hopelessness can bring no gain.

A smile at such times – false or true -
Can comfort others, if not you;
And while it cannot change your day,
It may brighten another’s way,
And when you are down and out and need one too,
Someone’s smile may work for you.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

A Sonnet on Life


That’s it and no more.
A full stop after numerous commas and semi colons,
And at times an aside (connected, yet apart)
Enclosed in a parentheses,
And somewhere then a new sentence begins;
Running at times into a paragraph, a page or even a novel,
Marked in its turn, with its own commas and semi colons,
Till it ends with its own full stop.

People, incidents and episodes -
Sentences woven together in the book of life;
At times adding value to the other,
Or at least needed to make sense,
Of what has gone before and what comes after,
Insignificant, yet defining, how valuable the book would be.

Words are all that I have left now...

The disarray of things scattered around the house
Complemented by conflicting thoughts and unlikely actions
That merely occupy time, but don't soothe
An ironic awareness of her greatness
That even the mere thought of her absence, in an undefined tomorrow
Floods today with tears, in anyone who hears the news

Fortunate to be groomed by her, my only hope
That I can replicate at least a fraction of her nature
Imbibed through nurture, osmosis or imitation
So that some day, when my time comes
Tears in the eyes and a real sense of loss
Would serve as my companions
In my journey to the other world 

Sunday, June 3, 2012

MEMORIES




Memories like all else need regular de-cluttering
Accumulated over time, sometimes by default
At others by oversight or laziness (that prevents immediate disposal),
They keep gathering, intertwining and mixing haphazardly,
Till you cannot distinguish the good from the bad,
And what really transpired from what one chooses to remember
Or even the shades that the passage of time and the clutter lends them.

The most precious inheritance, they lose their value
And serve neither as solace for an enticing today,
Nor as lessons for a better tomorrow.
Collected in various forms as thoughts, statements and messages
They tend to lie ignored, gathering dust;
Or remain irretrievable, as their presence is forgotten.

As often as possible, I carefully choose them
Letting go those of that hurt and holding closer to the heart those that matter
To complete the jigsaw of living, filled with the rich text of experience
And the vibrant hues that life has to offer.

Preeti Shirodkar